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Another random internet break was clearly had and getting the (for the want of a better word) "strength" together to write this post wasn't fun. I want to dive straight back into creating epic shit. But having been out of the swing of things for almost a month I just can't seem to actually create. I have ideas. Oh believe me I have pages of scribbles scrawled across many notebooks. But I just can't get myself to sit down and do it. There is an annoying gap between what I want to create and what I can.
Rather than walking away from this completely (by this I mean my blog / youtube / internet thing) I thought I'd come back and tell you that I've been (once again) feeling less than rad. The whole premise of this blog is to share and inspire you to live a rad life. Me not doing that (the whole living rad part) made it feel like I couldn't possibly have any right to give you advice on the topic.
Its can be exasperating when you work so hard on something (this blog / my life) and don't get the results you want. For a bit writing here felt pointless. I want this life; I've always been grasping for this rad life, but it sort of felt out of reach this year. I want to travel. I want to experience. I want to live rad. But I just couldn't get it. I was trying to run into the future while ignoring the now. It sucked! It was less than rad.
The truth is I lost myself. From the start of this year I've been trying to 'reinvent' myself. I grew tired of the old me. The 'hyper-happy' version of myself. So I decided to change. From my the hair on my head, to the values in my mind, to the signature I sign. But then I forgot who I was in my centre. And that was frightening. It resulted in bucket loads of tears (its been a hard year ok), a lack of creativity and Smay to snap me out of it.
So here I am, a month later, getting back on my feet. Surviving on two cups of coffee before nine am, not nearly enough sleep and hours of sci-fi films/tv. I haven't 'found' myself yet. But I know I will. And when I do I'll feel rad-er than ever. And I want to share that with you.
disclaimer: this is just a long chatty post to basically tell you I'm coming back bro. Thanks for sticking with me.
Tuesday, 21 April 2015
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Less Than Rad
Rather than walking away from this completely (by this I mean my blog / youtube / internet thing) I thought I'd come back and tell you that I've been (once again) feeling less than rad. The whole premise of this blog is to share and inspire you to live a rad life. Me not doing that (the whole living rad part) made it feel like I couldn't possibly have any right to give you advice on the topic.
Its can be exasperating when you work so hard on something (this blog / my life) and don't get the results you want. For a bit writing here felt pointless. I want this life; I've always been grasping for this rad life, but it sort of felt out of reach this year. I want to travel. I want to experience. I want to live rad. But I just couldn't get it. I was trying to run into the future while ignoring the now. It sucked! It was less than rad.
The truth is I lost myself. From the start of this year I've been trying to 'reinvent' myself. I grew tired of the old me. The 'hyper-happy' version of myself. So I decided to change. From my the hair on my head, to the values in my mind, to the signature I sign. But then I forgot who I was in my centre. And that was frightening. It resulted in bucket loads of tears (its been a hard year ok), a lack of creativity and Smay to snap me out of it.
So here I am, a month later, getting back on my feet. Surviving on two cups of coffee before nine am, not nearly enough sleep and hours of sci-fi films/tv. I haven't 'found' myself yet. But I know I will. And when I do I'll feel rad-er than ever. And I want to share that with you.
disclaimer: this is just a long chatty post to basically tell you I'm coming back bro. Thanks for sticking with me.